MY EARS

I AM SUFFOCATING FROM THE INFLUX OF AMAZING MUSIC THIS WEEK

SAY HELLO TO:

- TENDERONI BY KELE (FRONT MAN OF BLOC PARTY IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW ALREADY)


- LIGHTS BY INTERPOL

INTERPOL IS BACK. KELE IS PROGRESSING.
GREAT MUSIC IS COMING. I LOVE IT. I LOVE IT.

6,697,254,041 is a big number.

6,697,254,041 in this world yet it feels as if I am the only one here amongst the music that filters through my headphones and plagues my brain with the most glorious of sights.

How many times have I ever said this? You are your only best friend... Nobody will care about you more than yourself. Take my word, its true. Do I sound depressed? I may as well be. In actual fact, behind all the fake smiles and eyes that seem to sparkle with optimism, there is a darkness inside me that will never be illuminated. I sound pretentious. But right now, at this moment of time, I don't feel like a human. I want to feel love but I can't. And no, I am not sad over a boy or whatever. In fact, its far from teenage romance or such.

I wish I wasn't so alone.

I just finished rereading 'Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close'
I want to cry.

And this quote perfectly sums up my beliefs, 'I don't believe in God, but I believe that things are extremely complicated'. The more I read into this book, the more I feel. I want to read it all over again to feel all those sensations again.

Siberian Breaks

Don't ever let other people's opinion get into your way. So many people have labelled MGMT's latest musical offering as 'crap' and 'non-Oracular Spectacular-like'. With such low expectations, I prepared my ears for a wild trip through MGMT's music and was expecting to be disappointed. And was I? Not at all. Congratulations is psychedelic at its best and every song is so well crafted. Certainly there isn't a Time to Pretend nor a Kids but this is still MGMT staying true to their roots. It's very them and I could never mistake this record as any old record from any other band. The stand out tune for me would certainly be 'Siberian Breaks'. Although it may appear to sound a little fragmented at first, after a few listens it flows so well. And I especially love the end where a Let Down-esque sparkle can be evidently heard, it compliments the tune so well. Oh and who can forget 'Flash Delirium'? Although the video is frightening, the song is excellent. Now that I've put my opinion out there regarding Congratulations, I certainly hope I don't sway you too much that you have high expectations. Expect this album to be a grower.

The infrastructure will collapse

House of Cards by Radiohead

I feel so chill right now. It's Friday night and I'm at home, sitting here, half relaxing and half doing maths. I went to the hospital to volunteer today. It isn't my first time volunteering at the hospital but it was my first time going to the wards and talking to patients. I was honestly incredibly nervous before visiting the patients since I've never done such a thing before in my life and didn't really have any idea what to say. But it proved to be a pleasant experience and talking to the bed ridden patients was much more fun than I thought. Morgan and I talked to this elderly man first who skidded his arm on the pavement and thus, was admitted to hospital. He was so sweet and lovely, we both loved talking to him. It was a little strange first of all since we really didn't know where to start. I reckon its pretty hard since we have no idea of their backgrounds and don't want to offend them at all. You see, if I start asking about family...what if they don't have family? That will make them feel even more worse...Eh. We spoke to the gentleman for approximately 45 minutes and then moved to the other side of the ward, where there were a few old ladies who were desiring some company.

We volunteered for about an hour and headed home since it was starting to get a little late. Volunteering is quite rewarding. And it made me feel better on a personal level. The patients' appreciation is what really warms my heart.

Bulletproof...I Wish I Was

Doesn't it just depress you, knowing that one day, all that we do will be forgotten and no-one will remember? Noone will know the things that have made you feel proud, the names of lovers you have loved and missed, the things you have etched out on paper, the numbers you have calculated on test papers, the things you have paid for to use, the playlists you listened to when suffering from incredible insomnia....everything will be lost. And all we're left with after life will be a small grave and a coffin (perhaps ash if you want cremation) that will define who you are for the many years you have lived and endured. Perhaps I am not afraid of dying, I'm more afraid of being forgotten. It's inevitable. One day, noone on this earth will know who I am and noone will call out the name 'Katie Lau' and expect to see my face. . .

Sinking Friendships

I am more gutted of not being able to go to Jonsi than The Strokes. :(

jónsi - sinking friendships (live) from Jónsi on Vimeo.

School has been tiring and I'm starting to feel the consequences of lacking sleep. It sucks...my eyes are incredibly droopy right now and my bed/pillow seem to be luring me. Ahhh! Gotta do maths first though, eh.

Love is our resistance.

1. Mt Fuji in Japan

2. Year 11 Camp; Narrabeen