13.7.10
crushed like a bug in the ground
as i walked out of maths tutor, i couldn't help but feel exasperated and overwhelmed. im surprised and shocked, time passes by so fast...i cannot comprehend it. i walk into the car and greet my dad with half a smile. i don't even want to talk. i dig out the cd i burnt months ago containing all the songs that i felt were the saddest and most beautiful. i place the cd into the player immediately and skip to 'let down' by radiohead. my dad drives off away from tutor and back home. i sit there, with my head against the icy window, rubbing the condensation away with my bare hands. i look up the sky, all i see are big rain clouds and the blinding lights from all the other cars on the highway. the music in the background drowns out every word my dad utters and the song fuels my sadness as we drive off. all i want to ask is why?
12.7.10
I never thought about love when I thought about home.
I've not updated my blog properly for a while. All that I've posted have been music videos and pictures.
The holidays are whizzing by so very quickly and I haven't exactly done anything that has left me feeling rejuvenated nor inspired. I can clearly remember last year's July holidays, boy they were fun and perhaps the most fun I had during 2009. Everyday was a new day, a new adventure (literally) and I'd go out and do whatever I pleased. Though in 2010, here I am, stuck at home and trying in vain to finish all that I've planned to complete these holidays.
Hello life (and people I've not talked to for a while), I miss you.
10.7.10
The Rain
"THESE ARE THE GOOD TIMES IN YOUR LIFE
SO PUT ON A SMILE IT WILL BE ALRIGHT."
Some wise wisdom from Calvin Harris. Put on a smile, it will be alright.
8.7.10
the bittersweet between my teeth, trying to fight the in betweens.
We lie beneath the stars at night
Our hands gripping each other tight
You keep my secrets hope to die
Promises, swear them to the sky
I must say, this is one of the most visually enthralling videos I have ever stumbled upon. However, this song/video makes me rather annoyed with how I am studying/wasting my life away at the moment. I wish I could do everything those people in the video are doing right now. It's what youth do, right? A life wasted in dwelling introspectively, moping upon past regrets and mistakes is not a life well lived. I know I do that myself...I'm going to try not to. Youth doesn't last forever.
5.7.10
Nothing lasts forever.
soon i'll be gone.....
it all felt like a dream didn't it?
i sure think it did. it happened all of a sudden, like a flash. and now that flash is still lingering inside my eyes and obscuring my vision to see correctly.
i don't know how to articulate this. im sorry.
but i don't want to leave yet. no.
im afraid.
2.7.10
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