I could burst a million bubbles.

Bullet Proof..I Wish I Was by Radiohead

I wish I could openly thank a person for their kind words to me that have managed to inevitably pick me up back from my lows. They were probably never intended to be such 'motivating' messages but being the person I am, I have taken it in that way. I guess he only spoke of them to be kind and polite...but thanks to you...seriously.

And, oh gosh, half of the holidays have passed by already. I can't believe it, I feel as if I haven't done anything productive. I must endeavour to make the most of my time that I have remaining. I want to be on top of all my subjects now, I am sick of getting mediocre marks. Physics, oh dearie me. I am still considering whether I should continue with my studying of such a crappy subject. Heh, I wanna ask somebody for some advice...seeing they seem as though they know what they're talking about. Nevertheless, I know I will figure something out, just give me some time.

The holidays always manages to bring out the hermit within me. Ha! See the irony? Anyway, I'm starting to see how freaking plastic so many people around me are. Facebook and the like. I'm starting to see past it all and I feel, very out of the loop. Sometimes, I wish I could just confide into someone who is trustworthy, concerning all my thoughts and worries. I'm so insecure out here on my own...I guess I feel lost. Direction-less? Is that it? Ugh, I don't know. My mind is a mess.

i want to reconcile the violence in your heart.

Undisclosed Desires by Muse

After an intense 2 weeks of exams, it's now post-exam time i.e. receiving the tests back. I got many of my exams back today and can I honestly say, that I am very thoroughly disappointed in myself? I knew I should have committed myself more to my studies, stopped wasting time and just tried harder.

Thing is, I don't know how to improve for English. I tried so hard for Emma/Clueless and I end up getting the same shitass mark I got for Othello. No, it's not an Asian fail, but a fucking terrible mark that won't get me anywhere. I feel so terrible.

I'm chasing down a highway

To Get to You by Damien Leith

Out of all the Australian Idols, Damien Leith is my favourite out of the whole bunch. This man just screams pure talent and he also has a genuinely lovely voice to listen to. I used to be a very big fan of his, especially that period after he won idol. However, I kinda stopped being a fan of his when he released too many albums. But now, I won't stop being a fan of Damien's anymore. His new song, 'To Get to You', is amazing. I absolutely love it. Screw what other people say about Damien Leith, he will always have a special place in my heart and remain as a singer songwriter with incredible talent.

And oh, notice the setting of the video? Indeed, it's Sydney and I seriously did underestimate the beauty of this city. I live in it yet I put it down so much all the time. Sydney is beautiful.

It's late right now, precisely 1:04. I should sleep soon. And if the above paragraph/rant above about Damien Leith didn't make sense then bleh!

Running with believers, no time for fever and I haven't got time for you either

Sticks 'n' Stones by Jamie T

This is a bloody good song. It's been stuck in my head for the last few days...even when I was completing my Ext 1 Maths paper. I so wanted to write those catchy lyrics on my paper instead of numbers. Gosh, Jamie T, you king! :)

I may be paranoid but no android

Paranoid Android by Radiohead

As always, I should be studying for physics, maths ext 1 and legal studies. However, being a champion procrastinator, blogging is the way to go for me (Y).

Facebook has lost its appeal now. Seriously, there's no point logging onto it when there's absolutely nothing to do. I feel as though facebook is becoming increasingly like a quiz + gaming site and slightly reminiscent of twitter at the very same time. I have twitter, so I guess I shall use that instead now.

I'm slightly nervous for physics tomorrow...since it is in no way, my strongest subject. I suck at it. I only chose it as a subject this year because I found so much interest in it last year, when we were studying galaxies and waves... It sucks to realise how much it doesn't interest me anymore and how different it is to the year 10 course. Oh wells, I shall endure physics until the end of year 12....and hopefully, physics will scale my ATAR and push it up to something sexy. :P Yup, I want a sexy, hot and pretty ATAR score. :D

Better get off now. And btw, Paranoid Android is so long that this it is just finishing right now. Wowww. But nevertheless, its an amazing kickass song. Yay for Radiohead! :)

Everybody, everybody just wanna fall in love

Sick Muse- Metric



I should be studying and not blogging..however blogging is much more luring than studying for..well, legal studies. I dunno why I chose it honestly, maybe it's because I thought I might like it...or what not. How weird. I honestly don't know what prompted me to make such a decision though! Nevertheless, I've completed three exams out of the six I'm due to do. Halfway through ey? Nearly there, not yet though. It feels so much like a Saturday today, it's not even funny. Maybe it's because I've been at home for the past two days that my body feels as though its the weekend permanently.

Spring has gotten the better of me. I am now living on Telfast, a rather effective hayfever control medicine. Gosh, I keep on sneezing and my eyes are so damn watery. I hate this weather so much. It's unsettling and it makes me feel TERRIBLE. I wasn't even half bad in winter. I only had episodes of sneezing and feeling chilly at times. I also recovered from these minor colds relatively quickly. However, with hayfever, it seems as though I cannot do anything to suppress these symptoms BUT by taking Telfast. Great, exactly what I need ey? Anyway, for the first time in two months or so, I bought.....2 items of which are:
1. Muse's album, 'The Resistance'
2. A $20 shirt from General Pants Co.
So in total, I spent $40 on two items. :D

I'm getting rushed back on a whim

Bluish by Animal Collective

You know what I absolutely hate? Being the only one (whom I know) who likes some bands. It's so annoying, nobody would be willing to accompany you to go to concerts etc. For example, Animal Collective. I think I was the only one who went crazy over their latest album in my circle of friends... Maybe Vivien Fang went crazy as well, but she's never allowed to go to gigs. :(

Need. to. meet. people. at. gigs. and. thus. go. to. gigs. with. them.
UNFAIR >=(

But the clouds are clearing up

Moth Wings by Passion Pit

Summer is finally here in the city. The weather is so warm and I'm able to start wearing tshirts all over again. Winter, this time round, wasn't as cold as it was last year or the year before. I remember those days when I would literally be shaking. However, this year, I have been shivering but not the point of shaking. There is a difference there.

I've been trying to edit my layout and make it look aesthetically pleasing. However, this is the best I can do, since I am a HTML noob. So whatevs. I tried jazzing it up with pictures and the alteration of the fonts + colours. Not helping much perhaps? Nevertheless, I tried.

My exams start tomorrow...Honestly speaking, I feel a tad nervous but I feel prepared as well. I studied + wrote a practice essay for Emma...so I hope that that is enough preparation. Funnily enough, I feel 50% ready for Chemistry, 80% ready for maths and 0% ready for physics and legal studies (only because I haven't started committing those subjects to memory yet). However, by the end of tonight, I'm going to bump them all up to 100% ready xept phy and legal. I have the next few days to intensely study for them! Go go go! :)