the sky could be blue, i don't mind..without you its a waste of time

Strawberry Swing by Coldplay

I still remember when Coldplay released their album, Viva La Vida. I was so enamoured with their first single, Violet Hill and became incredibly obsessed as I first encountered the Viva La Vida iTunes promo. They surely had progressed and matured in their song writing. 2008 was characterised with listening to Coldplay endlessly and scouring through their older material and thus, falling head over heels for this lovely English band so there is no doubt that listening to this album will inevitably bring back great memories.

June 2008: Strawberry Swing forever.
I took the picture below in the Chinese Friendship Gardens back then. It was a beautiful day and I listened to this song as I ventured in the garden, taking photographs of all the lovely sights I saw. The day exactly mirrored the lyrics of the song, 'It's such a perfect day//the sky could be blue, i don't mind, without you its a waste of time'. And now, whenever I listen to the song, I cannot help but think of warm winter days spent in the city all alone. In a way, I felt quite lonely at the time...but with Chris Martin's voice accompanying my adventure in the city, it wasn't bad after all.

Lovers in Japan: Commuting to and from Parramatta

Lovers in Japan can potentially be my favourite off Coldplay's amazing album. I feel as if the song radiates happiness (if it could) and I feel empowered and so inspired whenever I listen to it. Though, in particular, I love the slow opening transcending to an upbeat change in tempo complimented with the piano-esque sounds. Ha! And that brings me back to 2008 when I was commuting to and from Parramatta for a whole week during work experience. Those days were characterised by lonely and cold morning rides to Redfern station then changing lines to catch the services to my work experience destination. As I was listening to Coldplay's album on repeat at that period of time, I listened to Lovers in Japan during all my commutes...and I didn't feel as alone. In fact, after work experience, I felt as if I started to miss those commutes to Parramatta. I don't know how to articulate how I feel but I felt a sense of happiness but sadness at the very same time whilst commuting. Lovers in Japan not only fuelled it but provided a basis for where my emotions laid. Perhaps I am not making any sense...but only good memories accompany when I listen to this wonderful song.

In My Place

This song makes me want to cry. Because its just so beautiful.

My Awful Health

Ever since year 12 has started, I feel like I'm either always:

1. Stressed

2. Panicking or

3. Moody

I guess these factors have now taken its toll on my health and I am currently stuck at home, experiencing the consequences of it. I guess these aren't directly the causes of my sickness right now, but surely, with the hormone imbalances etc, they have contributed to it.

I started having pains in my appendix area around 2 weeks ago. I got that checked out by the doctor and he gave me some tablets..the name of which I don't recall. He told me to go back the very next day for a check up but the silly me didn't think it was necessary. Bad idea. And plus, I had a lot of homework to do back then...so yeah, I compromised health for completing homework.

Fast forward to yesterday. I was running late for school and decided to skip breakfast. I hate missing the bus, it makes me feel awful... So, I had my breakfast in the form of noodles at around recess. It sure did taste great though little did I know that it would start the abdominal pains that have persisted ever since. I couldn't really do anything yesterday, nor was I motivated at all. I thought the pain would go away as I thought it was just a minor stomach ache. I was so wrong...I couldn't even sleep the pain away. I laid in my bed for the whole night, sleeping in one position i.e. upright, just so that the pain wasn't as intense. Heck, I even dreamt of going to the pharmacy to buy meds to cure my pain yet, funnily enough, the only meds that could potentially help me cure the pain in my sleep, were the drugs which required prescription..... What an uncanny reflection of my inner state.

I went to the doctor's today, given my intense pain that I am experiencing right now. I got some blood taken out of me...since he was afraid that I had acute appendicitis or something like that although it is most likely a gastrointestinal infection. I didn't get any meds, just advice that I should drink more water, pass some stool and take panadol whenever the pain is unbearable. I hope it is nothing big....I still have an Extension 2 Maths Paper to complete on Thursday. And I am not supposed to go to school tomorrow. Dear god, I am going to be missing out on so much theory. And now I am back to my panic mood. Ugh.

Oh and wtf with Muse's new song. It's nice but surely Muse did not compose this song. It is so incredibly different to what Muse really sound like. So so odd.

everything is broken

Planet Telex by Radiohead

It's hard to believe its the middle of May already. Life is zooming by. Too many things are happening...I'm tired and sometimes, a little alone. Email me. Someone please? I don't care if you have nothing to say, an empty email is better than none.

What I think.

I love how every new person I meet automatically assumes that I do the subjects: economics, modern history and business studies. I bet they also think I do standard English and 2 unit mathematics. It must the look I convey since those subjects are the exact things I do not do at school. In fact, they don't interest me on any level. Maybe we assume way too often and judge people from what they seem like. I guess I do it as well, I cannot say that I don't judge but I am trying to get to know people from what they really are, not what I think they are. It's true what those corny sayings say, 'Don't judge a book by it's cover', cause if you do you'll most likely get the insides wrong. People see things so one dimensionally. Maybe we should all start twitching our heads around and make a judgement once we're informed not when we're suspecting.

And you know what? I am starting to believe that all we do right now will add up in the end. There is a reason for every single thing we decide... Like Oskar from Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close said, 'I don't believe there is a God but I believe things are extremely complicated'. That's exactly what I think. Things are so complicated that they're unexplainable. That's what makes life so worthwhile and such an amazing experience. To be honest, we're all going to die one day...and at this stage, we don't know what will happen when we go. Maybe there's an afterlife? Maybe nothing happens? But its these little things that we do that defines our life so that the moment before we go, maybe we could go with a tingly feeling of happiness.

It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not. -Author Unknown

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.
Henry David Thoreau

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
Eleanor Roosevelt

It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.
Theodore Roosevelt

The greatest mistake you can make in life is to continually be afraid you will make one.
Elbert Hubbard

All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.
Walt Disney

Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.
Brian Littrell

You can't cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.
Rabindranath Tagore

If you want to make your dreams come true, the first thing you have to do is wake up. J.M. Power

Wherever you go, go with all your heart.
Confucius

The important thing is not to stop questioning.
Albert Einstein

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself in any direction you choose.
You're on your own.
And you know what you know.
You are the guy who'll decide where to go.
Dr. Seuss

There is no telling how many miles you will have to run while chasing a dream.
Author Unknown

The things I love (Part 1)

• train rides in the late afternoon when the carraige is either devoid of people or full of commuters. (my physics is taking over since I typed in commutator first. google it)
• the clear nights when there the sky is abound with galaxies or sparkling stars
• magnificent bokehs in photos
• In My Place by Coldplay
• perfectly hand drawn circles
• the airport and the thrills associated with travelling
• choirs singing soulful songs e.g. the 'oooohh woooh' to coldplay's viva la vida
• clipping off long nails. the feeling of having free nails is lovely
• sydney harbour. have you ever just sat in the botanic gardens and observed the ships coming in and out? i have and with my best friend too. everyone has ought to try it on a sunny day and just relax with the city view right in front of them.
• the bubbly and sparkly sounds of the opening to radiohead's let down
• reading wikipedia on the most random of things (hello, reading about darth vader)
• watching informative and intriguing documentaries. (especially the ones they used to show us in science...mm, love it!)
• song lyrics, 'magic soaking my spine' 'one day, i am gonna grow wings, a chemical reaction, hysterical and useless, hysterical and let down and hanging around'
• the 'ahh' backing vocals at the end of the song, Karma Police by Radiohead
• Chemistry
• Thom Yorke's fragile yet so utterly beautiful vocals in Fake Plastic Trees
• the feeling of finishing tutoring
• deep slumbers into the late morning
• saying hello to people who make you feel....very shy. (though i hate it when i can't bring myself to say hello...)

BURN YOUR NAME

Are you inspired? Isn't this video clip just so visually enthralling?
The sky lanterns that adorn the night sky are exactly what I want to see each and everyday. There's something so enchanting about stars in the sky and the yellow moon that sits amongst the galaxies above. I wish I could sit outside everyday and collect every speckle of light I see in the sky and keep them as mine forever.

And also, I'd love to see Powderfinger. Pity I know no one who'd consider coming with me. Doesn't that just suck?