11.10.09

I could burst a million bubbles.

Bullet Proof..I Wish I Was by Radiohead

I wish I could openly thank a person for their kind words to me that have managed to inevitably pick me up back from my lows. They were probably never intended to be such 'motivating' messages but being the person I am, I have taken it in that way. I guess he only spoke of them to be kind and polite...but thanks to you...seriously.

And, oh gosh, half of the holidays have passed by already. I can't believe it, I feel as if I haven't done anything productive. I must endeavour to make the most of my time that I have remaining. I want to be on top of all my subjects now, I am sick of getting mediocre marks. Physics, oh dearie me. I am still considering whether I should continue with my studying of such a crappy subject. Heh, I wanna ask somebody for some advice...seeing they seem as though they know what they're talking about. Nevertheless, I know I will figure something out, just give me some time.

The holidays always manages to bring out the hermit within me. Ha! See the irony? Anyway, I'm starting to see how freaking plastic so many people around me are. Facebook and the like. I'm starting to see past it all and I feel, very out of the loop. Sometimes, I wish I could just confide into someone who is trustworthy, concerning all my thoughts and worries. I'm so insecure out here on my own...I guess I feel lost. Direction-less? Is that it? Ugh, I don't know. My mind is a mess.