Can I take ya, take ya higher?

I've been reading some of my older posts on this blog and who knew I had such intuition as to how life would pan out...or is it just mere insight to the fact that when circumstances change, so do people? Third year uni...how did this even happen? Time flies by so quickly, that it's sometimes even harder to comprehend what happened within all those voids. Were these years lived or dreamed? (ah gwen harwood how you voice my anxieties)

Looking back into the past and re-evaluating my actions is something I do almost all the time. Perhaps that's the sentimental side seeping through to young adulthood. Everyone that was in my life three years ago (HSC year) are not necessarily there in my immediate life anymore. Nor were some of the people that were heavily involved with my life last year. Does that mean that everything is temporal? That life is in constant change, that every moment will yield different things. I don't want to believe it, for the present that I am living in is the present that I so value to the point that I want to make it my future and for more.

For most of 2012, I didn't understand why things had to happen a particular way. But now I understand, it was to simply shape the 2013 I know today. And I hope that most of the things and people I value here in 2013 will still be involved in the years to come because I've never felt any more bliss in my life than I currently do. Yeah, I may put on a front to seemingly hate everything I come across...sometimes I don't even know why I do that. Is that to detract everything away from me? maybe it's because i'm so afraid of losing what i love that i refuse to proclaim my affections and my love anymore. yeah, perhaps that's it.

thanks blogger, you helped me figure out why i am the way i am.