So long 2010

There's still another 14 hours until 2011 here in London but only under 3 hours to go in Sydney...
2010 has gone by frighteningly fast. Amazing things happened and there were times when i was feeling incredibly low. But all in all, this made for an incredible year - one which I will remember. i'll probably look back with fondness in the future for it was one of the most thrilling. I made new friendships this year, improved some and lost others. But life goes on. 2011 is building up as an exciting year....one where university awaits and new dscoveries are just around the corner.

Happy New Year to all of you.
What 2011 holds in store - I don't know....
But I'm hoping it will trump 2010.

xxx - ahhh...

Ldn

I'm in London now and feeling really disorientated. I cannot for one believe that I am in Europe, a place I've only seen through films and other things...but here I am. I am struggling in vain to stay awake despite it being only 4pm - oh the pains of jetlag. Sleep will only come at arond 7 hours time. Everything in England is like a romanticised version of Sydney and its really cold - 10 degrees by which the English regard as warm. Oh what a tourist I am.

With regard to feeling disorientated - being here is so surreal. In many ways I already miss home...the lure of my comfortable bed and pleasant weather. Nevertheless, I strive to make the most out of my time here and see England from a foreigner's perspective.

I was afraid I'd eat your brains

conversation 16 - the national

Merry Christmas! Hope you're all having a splendid day...doing whatever you please.

1. Went to the city for a drive last night after having Pho at Bankstown. As boring as Sydney gets sometimes, being a really sleepy city and possibly quite darn laid back, I always feel so lucky to be able to see the stunning harbour whenever I want to. People come over to Australia just to admire our Harbour. I just feel so lucky to be living here, being blessed with such magnificent views around me all the time.

2. Will definitely be off to Hong Kong sometime soon and perhaps Singapore. Dunno if the latter will eventuate but honestly, I don't really want to go to Singapore. Blah

3. My neighbourhood is certainly very quiet today. There are no cars on the roads...I suppose everyone is enjoying the festive season.

and my lips, they don't kiss, they don't kiss the way they used to.

I have The Killers' live DVD but I couldn't help but youtubing it and just pasting it everywhere I go because this rendition of 'For Reasons Unknown' is possibly my favourite. Ah, The Killers are amazing.

it's terrible love and i'm walking with spiders

For my HSC/Atar, I asked for an iPhone 4. I never ask my parents for anything as an academic reward but this time I did. Why? I secretly want to cure my loneliness...travelling around with it as if it were a new friend who'd take care of me. I wanted to use it to take pictures of the world, with its new HD feature and record all those moments that are fleeting. However, I'm not getting one until next year. And here I think, what am I going to do? I only wanted one because people are so unreliable...

'i'm losing touch.'

lost in love, i can't see the light of day

Watching Me, Watching You - Gypsy and the Cat

I watched 'Somewhere' at Greater Union on Saturday, after seeing the trailer since a few months ago and getting rather intrigued with what Coppola will offer in her next film. It was refreshing to watch and the cinematography was well produced however, the editing was poor and there were scenes that simply dragged on for too long...Though, I do believe the long scenes are used primarily to showcase the boring, mundane and exceedingly pointless lifestyle the protagonist maintains. The best part of the movie however was the soundtrack which was well integrated into the film. Coppola does magic with her music in every single one of her movies, always managing to convey the mood with the music that she employs. Phoenix's Love like a Sunset Parts I + II were so well integrated in the film. I especially enjoyed how Coppola used the climax of the song to signify the protagonist's entrance into a enlightened world and ultimately, end the film to a poignant black screen that leaves you thinking till the very end. 'Somewhere' at times was exceedingly humorous, with Coppola poking fun at the L.A./Hollywood lifestyles...particularly noting the hilarious pole dancing sequences in the beginning.

On the whole, Sofia Coppola's imagination and dealing with the alienated, segregated and disillusioned continues to enchant... 'Somewhere' had the feel of 'Lost in Translation' yet it felt different. It honestly did feel empty at some points and once again, I must reiterate that I think it was her choice to make the film feel this way. It lacks dialogue and much action but its full of poignant moments....especially how Stephen Dorff falls asleep whilst having sex - much is said about the life of Hollywood by that scene...(absolutely hilarious!)

You're so special, so fucking special.

16th of Dec

1. Content with ATAR.
2. St George really, 'fucked it up this time' didn't we my dears....? (see Mumford and Sons reference) Number 18? Despicable and incredibly....disappointed.
3. I now understand why I missed out on the two band 6s I was hoping to see in the text message. The first girl for chem fucked up hard. And phys? I don't even know about that. (I always knew my school sucked for sciences)
4. Sold my Interpol tickets and sent them off in the mail today. Pretty cut though life goes on. It's okay, I've seen them once already...though seeing them again would be hell worth it.
5. I am off to the UK at around Christmas time. Pretty pumped and excited.

Fate always loses hope, like electric sparks in my heart

E.S.T. by White Lies

I'm a strong believer that everyone is destined for something...as corny as it sounds. And if it's meant to be, it will happen... But that makes me question a lot of things too. I wonder why nothing ever eventuates in my life. Maybe I am just not doing anything about my life and therefore, I am in limbo. I feel like I've been stuck in limbo indefinitely in so many respects. I don't know how to elaborate cause everything I feel is just so petty to everyone else.

I miss people. I miss everything.

I miss some more people. I miss the times which were memorable.

I miss school (sometimes). I miss feeling exhilarated and inspired.

But most of all, I miss...

Some idiot told me once that time heals everything. Maybe that idiot is right. Who knows?

hold you in my arms, i just wanted to hold you in my arms.

These are just a few of my vids that I took on the night. Oh my goodness...so in love. ♥

NO ONE'S GONNA TAKE ME ALIVE, TIME HAS COME TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.

I am still stuck in a euphoric high after going to Muse's first Sydney Show. Absolutely dazzled, amazed, entranced and simply obsessed with this amazing band. Let me see another Muse show, please! I couldn't actually sleep last night from being so blown away by their concert and also because my legs felt werid all night....the only comfortable position for my foot was when it was on tippy-toes....(that shows how long I was in that position for i.e. the whole night) Their epicness has taken away my ability to form coherent sentences with correct grammar. Take for example a tweet I made last night as I came home from the show:

Daym: 'I SWERA I FELT THE WHOLE FLOOR SHOOK WHEN MUSE PLAYED STOCKHOLM SYNDROME.'

Shook Katie, shook? Are you kidding me? LAWL

But yes, the floor actually shook when they played 'Stockholm Syndrome'...it was those vibrations that I felt which basically tore Acer Arena apart. Muse opened with 'Uprising' which to me, was the perfect song to open their epic live show in Sydney. I love how the crowd sang in unison when it got to the choruses of 'THEY WILL NOT CONTROL US, WE WILL BE VICTORIOUS'. 'Starlight' was incredibly beautiful, with all these gorgeous visuals adorning the Acer Arena, remotely resembling a galaxy of sparkling stars on the rooftop. '...our hopes and expectations, black holes and revelations...' Though perhaps the highlight of the show was seriously, 'Plug in Baby', 'Hysteria' and 'Time is Running Out'. It was during PIB when my friends and I started making our way through the first quarter of the moshpit to the front, near all the hardcore Musers who moshed so hard that I didn't even need to move my own body to be jumping up and down. Live and intimate, as they say. Anyhow, I was very surprised at how dead the mosh appeared to be where we were initially standing (and we weren't even that far away at first). It was freaking Muse!! I also had a glance around the arena when the lights were on....most of the crowd were sitting down and not engaged, even when their most amazing songs were played. What is this people?!?!! Absolutely baffled. So no, I am glad I came out alive but I seriously expected more of the dead crowd after seeing concert footage of Muse in Wembley tearing down the stadium and crowds. Oh and the highlight of the night was when Matt Bellamy dedicated, 'Citizen Erased' to Julian Assange. I always knew that Muse were supporters of Wikileaks given that their music is centred around conspiracies and all the like so it was comforting to hear that they were aware of the whole issue surrounding Wikileaks. Oh yes, twas a little disappointed when they didn't play: 'Bliss', 'Butterflies and Hurricanes' and 'Feeling Good'. But it was nevertheless a great setlist.

Anyway, I went with Cecilia and Tiffany to the concert, unknowingly meeting up with a few friends who had tickets to side view seating. I felt really bad for them initially but then found out that their views of the band were not completely obscured so I guess that was fine. But nevertheless, we picked up some confetti from the ground and gave it to them as a gift or possibly as some consolation. Oh...and I was probably really annoying as well, always asking them to pose for my camera! Muahhahaha. Sorry peeps.

All in all, Muse has got to be my favourite concert ever; seriously trumps every other live act I've seen so far in my life and that has surely got to be something. I mean, I've seen Phoenix, Bloc Party + Interpol; all of which are known to be tight on stage. But no, it is surely Muse who own the stage. They were impeccable. And I shall end with some words; It is so true what they say about the Muse live experience; there are no words to express their sheer epicness and you must attend one of their shows to fully appreciate their offering to music.

Love is our resistance.

I'm seeing Muse tomorrow! I've bought my tickets for about 6 months already and now am finally seeing them at the Acer. As always, there's the obligatory complaining about Acer Arena and how far away and inaccessible it is. But seeing them will be so worth it tomorrow and I am so fucking excited. Oh Matt Bellamy, I get to finally witness your degree of epicness live.

And...I sincerely hope I do not get killed in the mosh pit by Muse fans tomorrow night. It's the first concert in Sydney as well....so all the hardcore Musers are going to be there; wish me luck please!

RESISTANCE!

I wouldn't stop for red lights

Delphic. Please let them win something amazing for their ethereal and absolutely stunning début album. Sometimes, I think they are utterly underrated. More people should listen to them.

Interpol

So the inevitable has come, I am not going to Interpol any more and am trying in vain to find someone who is willing to buy such tickets off my hands. I've been very unsuccessful in getting ANYONE to come with me...with a few going overseas at that time and others just...well, not really wanting to go. That sucks. My mum initially wanted me to go to Interpol since she knows I really like them...but now that I'm selling them I think I'll be leaving for Hong Kong at around Christmas time. Hooray, what great fun. (That is imbued with much sarcasm thanks).

I'll be selling my tickets at a much cheaper price than those on ebay though i.e. at face value and not a scalper price...perhaps I should try that. Anyhow, if any of you peeps read this and don't listen to Interpol or just simply don't think they're that good. Please reconsider your stance. Interpol are fking great.

Please listen to: rest my chemistry, evil, pda, c'mere, nyc, precipitate, success, try it on. Thanks. You all suck anyway.

Anyway, Coldplay released a nice video. Intersting song though....very Viva La Vida esque Coldplay. When will A Rush of Blood Coldplay be back? Favourite era forever.

a heart of stone a smoking gun i can give you life, i can take it away.

Whenever someone asks me what I am going to be doing in university next year...I always get so self conscious now. I get asked this question almost everyday, 'oh what are you going to do next year?' 'how can you not remember your uac choices?' - of course I do its just that, I am so afraid.

Nothing's set in stone yet and all I am doing is waiting patiently for my ATAR. From then on, will I have the slightest clue of where my next step will be towards. Sometimes I wish to be back at school, knowing that I am just working towards the HSC or an end of year prize. But I guess it's time to grow up and take some initiative. University will be good, I know it. I feel like I am in limbo right now without any real direction. I'm afraid that what I'll end up choosing won't be right for me because in some ways, I guess I may be choosing it as a leaping pad for another career.