31.3.10

Rebel Diamonds


Tokyo at sundown; Picture taken by the band, Delphic.

It's nearly been a year since I visited Tokyo and the memories I have left the city with come flooding back into my mind as I stumble upon this photo on facebook. The sensation of visiting Tokyo is hard to articulate. To me, I felt so alive as I visited this foreign land yet so out of place simultaneously that I felt incredibly overwhelmed with all I saw. The city was filled with people in every corner and the gigantic buildings around made me feel like I was suffocating. Yet the chaos that Tokyo exudes is nothing short of being inspiring...it made me feel that all was possible. I can recall the main form of communication between the locals and I...it was all through hand gestures that were most probably misinterpreted by them..who knows? Japanese culture is indeed a strange one. But through the thrill of having so many things lost in translation and occasionally being completely and utterly disorientated in the momentum of the city was worth it. Oh! And walking through Shibuya at night would be an experience I will never forget in the coming years. To have one light signal thousands of people scrambling across an intersection simultaneously and being caught within it all is only an experience that can be captured when you visit the city. I'd love to visit Tokyo again in the near future, the city is amazing.

28.3.10

GAGA RO MA MA!

Happy Birthday LADY GAGA!
24 years of song writing genius! May you always write more and more songs for us LITTLE MONSTERS!

Ha! And I laugh.

I really like how people were obsessing over Alice in Wonderland in the beginning. Oh Tim Burton! Oh Johnny Depp! Oh Helena Bonham Carter! Oh-I-think-this-is-going-to-be-the-best because I am hipster like that! Yeah, well..I am glad Alice in Wonderland was critically reviewed as a failure. It makes all you people look stupid. Perhaps we should all learn to not make a big deal out of things that are supposedly, going to make us seem 'cool'. Because nobody is cool.

I've been watching a House a fair bit lately and it's starting to make me think that all the doctors out there are inadequate and the only real doctor is indeed Gregory House. He's an asshole though I can't seem to stop watching him and feeling sorry for him..even when he doesn't give a shit about you. It's his wit, sarcasm and pure apathy towards emotions that make me so intrigued and hooked onto this show. I'm only watching House so religiously because of his personality...oh and of course, the very interesting diagnosis. Heck yeah. Oh..and the Wilson and House relationship is quite adorable. I wish they'd get with each other...a homosexual relationship igniting from bromance...the idea is lovely. Ha!

27.3.10

Transition.

Pictures from The Sartorialist.


25.3.10

I wish I could live free, I hope its not beyond me

The New by Interpol

Nobody is perfect, I think that's been established long ago. Even when perfection is unattainable, surely there are some qualities embedded within a person that will make them stand out and perhaps, be a little special in a way. I've calculated and considered everything about myself, weighed up the qualities and flaws that I personally know I possess and have figured that I am average. To be honest, I think I am more flawed than blessed. You know those people who have a knack for learning all kitschy artsy things easily and/or either talented musically? Yeah, well, I am not one of those. Year 9 + 10 art reinforced my incapability of producing a aesthetically appealing piece of artwork, as indicated by my failed portrait of myself! Alas, I couldn't even draw myself on a bloody canvas. I've tried picking up the guitar and learning a few chords to a few of my favourite songs. Even though I learned the chords, I struggled with keeping my fingers on the strings and progressing smoothly from chord to chord. Yes, I did practise but the more I did, the more I realised how much coordination I lacked to successfully play the guitar. Even though I love listening to the melodic and luscious sounds of music, to reproduce it by myself is just out of my league. It's just something that's not in me. You see, artistic talent is not possessed by myself. (as much as I wish it was) Oh, and artistic talents also embody photography, singing, dancing and all the creative things. I can do them all...all in a mediocre manner..see? Not perfect..nowhere even near good.

Educationally? Average student, not that impressive. Okay at some subjects, shit at others. As indicated by results, I have realised that I am always just an average girl. I sometimes wonder why my name is actually Katie when really it should be my middle name, Jane. I should have been really called Jane Katie Lau, instead of Katie Jane Lau. I do try..to be honest, but it just seems as though every single one of my tests all yield an average result. Maintaining an average result in such a competitive school is not good enough in my standards. I've always wanted to trump the usuals...those girls who are always getting impressive scores in every.single.subject they do. Seriously speaking though...looking and observing their study habits already tire me. I just want to bury my head in a pillow and not look at their determined faces.

I always say this after my exams...but I am thoroughly disappointed with the results I received for mathematics. It was always my strong subject but lately, it's been lagging behind and I am not getting what I want to get. I know I could have done so much better...if I had put in more effort and been a little less arrogant in my assumptions regarding my knowledge of the topics that were tested. I thought I had a reasonable grasp of what was assessed but there were inevitably gaps within my knowledge that restricted me from attaining the marks that were of the higher end. Katie, is yet again, average Katie (Jane). Perhaps this is a wake up call, telling me to refocus and re-evaluate my study habits. I am slightly relieved that these tests only constitute 20% of my overall HSC mark...there is still room for improvement and I know I will make in all the up and coming assessments. It's only a matter of dedication to breakthrough this plain Katie Jane barrier. It will be my time to shine.

24.3.10

and what was there..and what wasn't there.

This is so terribly overused but every time I look at the calendar, I become so surprised and shocked. It's the 24th already and in a week, it will be the end of the month. Life is flying by before my eyes and I can't seem to absorb everything that happens around me. The good, the bad and the ugly, everything is memorable and it's just what I possess, a silly brain which cannot comprehend all that life has to offer. Sometimes...I forget the details and the more I refresh my memory, the more I lose. And the problem is that I don't want these memories chipping away becoming nothing more but merely fragments in my mind. But the more I delve into my memories, the more alive I feel...Happy, nostalgic and sentimental. Stuck.

21.3.10

I can feel it in my bones

Gimme Sympathy by Metric

I took a trip down memory lane today...via reading old posts on my msn space. It used to be a private space where only my messenger contacts could read...but since I don't use that email account any more, I thought I could make it public so you can all read how I used to blog. It's really interesting to read what I wrote approximately 4 years ago and its easy to tell how simply I used to think. Life wasn't that complex at all and all that really concerned me were completing science assignments on stupid rocks and watching movies with friends. I honestly regret deleting some of the blogs I used to have... I should have retained them as they were so that I could dig them out and reread what I used to think.. alas, that's impossible now. And now, I just laugh at what I used to write and reminisce of those days when I felt as if the world was at my feet and I could easily conquer anything before me. 2006 was a great year for me...and it can be seen as reflected in my posts.

Join me in reflection of my junior years at St George.

19.3.10

Sick Muse.

I'm so terribly sick and tired of going on facebook and be overwhelmed with a news feed that only displays what people became fans of. Okay, I get that these things do apply to your life, but technically speaking, do you even have a life other than joining such facebook groups that supposedly define your life? Its utterly annoying to just see everyone becoming 'fans' of the dumbest things ever.

1. Those groups that deal with, 'my best friend' this or '...best friends are...'
I'm rather cynical regarding best friends. I had a best friend from primary who by now I will regard as my only best friend I had and currently one of my close friends. Complex innit? But its really simple, I don't like the concept of best friends. Its such an exclusive term to use upon friends and really makes other friendships upheld with other friends seem less important. To be honest, it does hurt the other friends in particular when one friend may regard their friendship as something extremely important only to find out that the other friend only thinks of such a relationship as a something...not as special. I guess I know this because I've actually been through it. I thought I had a really special friendship with one of friends whose name will not be disclosed....and I found out that I wasn't their so called very 'best friends'. That sucked.

And as I alternate between the facebook and blogger tab, I, yet again, SEE MY FRIENDS BECOMING FANS OF THE SHITTIEST SHIT EVER. STOP IT PEOPLE!!!!! COME ON. UGH GET A LIFE. FUCK!

WHEN DID FACEBOOK BECOME A PLATFORM FOR PEOPLE TO ONLY JOIN FANPAGES OF THE DUMBEST THINGS EVER? I THOUGHT YOU USED IT TO CONNECT. GUESS NOT ANYMORE! FUCKING HELL PEOPLE. FUCK-ING-HELL!

MONSTERBALL.

Lady Gaga was born to PERFORM. Her concert was so amazing and its no wonder that she's broke.
The theatrics were amazing and everything was just so well produced. GO GAGA!




17.3.10

Memory

'Memory is the diary that we all carry about with us.' - Oscar Wilde

16.3.10

Gorgeous

Photos from HERE
Aren't these photos just so amazingly captured?
I secretly wish that it was ME who took such photos. Daym!



15.3.10

Pet Peeves

This is probably going to be one of the most self centred posts on my blog ever, but I just felt it was necessary to put out what I deem to be the most annoying traits in people, ever.

1. People who do not let others off the train first.
This really puts me off. I know that you are so desperate to get to work and to get on the train, but please display some courtesy to let people OFF the train first. It's so rude to see some people not giving a care in this world, but pushing their way through onto the train. Hello? The train won't close as of yet, it will only close when everyone is on it, so don't rush to get onto the carriage. I've witnessed so many people just push on and knock others over...don't you know that by doing so, you make it so dangerous to get off and on.
These people deserve sucker punches.

2. People who say, 'well, this is awkward...'
WELL HELLO, NOW YOU'VE JUST MADE IT EVEN WORSE. This has occurred to me TWICE already in a matter of two days. Don't people know some social etiquette? If you do not want it to be awkward, the way to counter it is to not make any mention of 'awkwardness' but strive to maintain a decent and civilised conversation. I swear, some people need some education regarding social interaction. It just makes me wonder whether they've been living in a hole for their whole lives or are just socially retarded. Oh and its even worse when somebody says, 'well, now I have nothing to talk to you about'. THANKS FOR THAT YOU RUDE PERSON. I'm sorry, but I got really offended when a person said that to me yesterday. I wanted to kick them in the face and just totally cut off any 'FRIENDSHIP' for that matter. That person had nothing to talk to me about but only teasing me about my alleged crush on some guy....I told them to stop, because it wasn't even true...and thus, came about that statement. GO GET EDUCATED AND LEARN SOME SOCIAL ETIQUETTE.

3. Narrow mindedness
I respect individual values and I don't mind that. However, I do mind when narrow mindedness intervenes with opinions. One that's really obvious is narrow mindedness in music tastes. PEOPLE, just give it a listen before you make a judgement. Telling me that you won't listen to a certain artist because its 'too mainstream' or 'too poppy' is just pure bullshit. If you have listened to it and don't like it, fair enough...but basing your opinions on labels is just plain stupidity. You don't understand how dumb it makes you seem.

4. Underage drinking/partying till you get smashed IS NOT COOL
I'm ashamed of around 95% of my generation...I think we are labelled as those kids who think it is really cool to get smashed every weekend and hold Bacardis in their hands whilst posing for potential facebook profile pictures. I'm sorry, but I'm just not part of that clique..as a matter of fact, I am disgusted by such behaviour...it's these traits which shamefully characterise my generation...and the culture that ties in with it. Please! Underage drinking is not cool, especially if your main aim is to upload such photos and receive comments on 'HOW COOL YOU FUCKING LOOK' is DISGUSTING. Ugh. And I also hate how popular culture has deemed partying and clubbing as the cool activities to do...Are we seriously that low now?

5. Facebook photo albums of just ONE SUBJECT, the poser.
I appreciate it when people upload photos on facebook...BUT NOT WHEN THEY ARE ALL OF THE SAME PERSON POSING IN DIFFERENT POSITIONS AND IN FRONT OF THE BATHROOM MIRROR. I don't think its necessary to show the world how you look when you pose seductively in front of the mirror nor do I think its necessary to see your hair in different arrangements. And no, I don't want to see your pouting photos...DO YOU KNOW HOW STUPID IT MAKES YOU LOOK? SERIOUSLY PEOPLE. Not only that, you just give the impression that you're incredibly narcissistic and place yourself on a pedestal. Not cool.

12.3.10

Everything is Everything

everything is everything, the more I talk about it, the less I do control...
that lyric up there is basically me in a nutshell. oh dear, that's a darn sad case. I think I talk about too many things and I end up losing control. Oh Katie. Why?

Anyhow, I went to the hospital today for my volunteering induction. It was quite the interesting and I found out that I am going to be visiting old people and talk to them, perhaps keep them company. I am a little nervous to be honest..since they are, inevitably, patients in a hospital and may be very sick or something..you know, I mean good but I don't want to end up being sick as well! Yeah...let's see how this volunteering goes and I hope it will be good in the way that I'll learn something along the way and have it become easier for myself to interact in unfamiliar situations. And this is also first hand experience for me at a hospital..and as the volunteer manager said, 'this will either put you off or put you on hospital work'. It only goes two ways..I wonder which way...and perhaps, volunteering at St George Hospital will help me with choosing university courses. I hope so.

11.3.10

nice font


copied from the phoenix tour diary...
this is an example of a nice font/nice writing..

ps, DEAR YOU, YES YOU. (though u prob don't read this)
but holy fucking shit, why are you so...I DUNNO BUT AMAZING? HOLY SHIT
sorry, i don't think you know i feel like this
but goddamn, you are crazy in the way that you are fucking amazing. AHHHHH
AND SO FREAKING NICE. WTFFFF MAN. T_T
MELTING X INFINITY.

10.3.10

"I missed you even when I was with you. That's been my problem. I miss what I already have, and I surround myself with things that are missing." - Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

8.3.10

Poignant Quotes...

All quotes by Jonathan Safran Foer, an amazing writer who can so easily encapsulate raw human emotions within words.

"I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can't tell fast enough, the ears that aren't big enough, the eyes that can't take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone."

"What about little microphones? What if everyone swallowed them, and they played the sounds of our hearts through little speakers, which could be in the pouches of our overalls? When you skateboarded down the street at night you could hear everyone's heartbeat, and they could hear yours, sort of like sonar. One weird thing is, I wonder if everyone's hearts would start to beat at the same time, like how women who live together have their menstrual periods at the same time, which I know about, but don't really want to know about. That would be so weird, except that the place in the hospital where babies are born would sound like a crystal chandelier in a houseboat, because the babies wouldn't have had time to match up their heartbeats yet. And at the finish line at the end of the New York City Marathon it would sound like war."

"Humans are the only animal that blushes, laughs, has religion, wages war, and kisses with lips. So in a way, the more you kiss with lips, the more human you are. And the more you wage war."

"I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love."

"'Why do beautiful songs make you sad?' 'Because they aren't true.' 'Never?' 'Nothing is beautiful and true.'"

"Sometimes I imagined stitching all of our little touches together. How many hundreds of thousands of fingers brushing against each other does it take to make love? Why does anyone ever make love?"

"The more you love someone, he came to think, the harder it is to tell them. It surprised him that strangers didn't stop each other on the street to say I love you."

"It's so beautiful at this hour. The sun is low, the shadows are long, the air is cold and clean. You won't be awake for another five hours, but I can't help feeling that we're sharing this clear and beautiful morning."

"From space, astronauts can see people making love as a tiny speck of light. Not light, exactly, but a glow that could be confused for light - a coital radiance that takes generations to pour like honey through the darkness to the astronaut's eyes. In about one and a half centuries - after the lovers who made the glow will have long since been laid permanently on their backs - the metropolitan cities will be seen from space. They will glow all year. Smaller cities will also be seen, but with great difficulty. Towns will be virtually impossible to spot. Individual couples invisible."

6.3.10

All I want to wear in Winter

I only want to wear trench coats.
So...I am on the hunt to buy the perfect trench. I already have a pretty decent Ben Sherman winter coat...but that's not sufficient. Need. trench. coat. Ha!
All photos from the sartorialist.



Love Like a Sunset Part Deux

Filmed by myself at the Big Top! Love love love.

5.3.10

When the lights are cutting out and I come down in your room...



Armistice by Phoenix

I went to Phoenix the other night and my god, they delivered an extraordinary performance. I loved every bit of the concert and they played all my favourite songs...including: Armistice, Napoleon Says, Too Young, Girlfriend, Love like a Sunset and 1901. It was an excellent show and the strobe lights worked so well with the amazing music. I had a great time and surely, the next time they come back, I'll be the first to run and buy tickets. Oh! And may I add, I touched Thomas Mars' arm, leg and shoe. His arm was rather squishy..though his leg was sticky. Nevertheless, I touched him! Bahaha, I sound like a pervert...and I apologise. Eeh!

1.3.10

CK Hands


Mine!
Thanks Amanda, my dear sister.