'i'm losing touch.'
21.12.10
it's terrible love and i'm walking with spiders
For my HSC/Atar, I asked for an iPhone 4. I never ask my parents for anything as an academic reward but this time I did. Why? I secretly want to cure my loneliness...travelling around with it as if it were a new friend who'd take care of me. I wanted to use it to take pictures of the world, with its new HD feature and record all those moments that are fleeting. However, I'm not getting one until next year. And here I think, what am I going to do? I only wanted one because people are so unreliable...
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Wait, what happened to the comment about Muse possibly being banned from Australia for 5 year? I swear it was here a second ago! I was going to comment and ask why!
ReplyDeleteAlso, awesome, you're going travelling?
And you do have friends who'll take care of you. Maybe not the ones you chose to hang out with for most of our schooling years, but that doesn't mean that everyone else doesn't care. We're here for you, even if we can't be quite as reliable as an iPhone, but we'll try.
Sorry about that.
ReplyDeleteI removed that post because it only had one sentence and it looked really ugly against my other posts...I am a bit OCD with how my blog looks! But Muse may face a 5 year ban because they violated the 'no moshing' policy and also because Chris, the bassist, was smoking despite officials telling him not to.
I was going to go travelling...to Europe. But with the imminent snow in Heathrow and the Arctic conditions, I think Europe will unfortunately be cancelled and we'll just go for our yearly Hong Kong trip. Not really looking forward to that...(if there's anything high school has taught me, it has to be the concepts of belonging...) I always feel so out of place...like I don't belong.
I'm sorry to have discounted you. Really terribly sorry, I must seem so insensitive with my assertions made in my post.
Wow, that sucks for them. It's understandable, but it still sucks.
ReplyDeleteNaw, but it's Europe! It should never get cancelled on, even if it's snowing like crazy. I feel bad for you, that would've been awesome.
So what is it about Hong Kong that makes you feel out of place? If you don't mind me asking. I'm curious because I've never actually left the country.
No, you don't sound insensitive. I do the same as you most of the time. Which is why I know how important it is to be reminded that there are others who care a lot about you.
I was so excited for a trip to Europe because I've seen so many things, heard so many stories about how mindblowingly beautiful Europe truly is. I am pretty gutted I can't go....stupid Heathrow!
ReplyDeleteThe culture in Hong Kong is entirely different to what it is in Australia. Perhaps I've grown up in Australia and have become accustomed to everything here. And also, my cousins live in HK and everytime I go, I yearn to talk to them. Despite being near their ages...(they're arond 23/24 others 13 ~ 15 so I do not regard our age differences to be that big) they simply do not care much about me...I've tried many times to break our barriers but my efforts are rendered as futile. I used to be overly saddened but have recently come to accept it as a reality that the geographical boundaries that have existed from the moment since I was born will never be overcome. My relationships with my relatives are honestly, not too strong. And that's probably why I've started calling Australia as home.
:) Thanks Mersini, you're really kind.
And sorry about the minor rant!
If you were interested in checking out awesome photos of Europe:
ReplyDeletehttp://allthingseurope.tumblr.com
It really is as beautiful as they say.
I can't say I have the same problem because all my first cousins and most of my second cousins live here, but I understand where you're coming from. In all likelihood, it would be the same for me with my relatives in Greece.
At least you're doing the right thing by trying to reach out to them. If they don't want to do the same, well it's their loss, they miss out on getting to know an amazing person. You've established some kind of relationship, even if it's not a very strong one. Maybe one day, you never know, they might change their attitude and come around to wanting to get to know you. You know, when they realise the world is bigger than just where they live and there are cultures vastly different from theirs. You can always hope.
Oh gosh, that website is going to make me even more disappointed that I'm not going to Europe anymore! AHHH! But thanks for the link, I'll definitely check it out. :) It'll really kickstart my wanderlust you know?
ReplyDeleteWell...I do hope so. But well, my older cousins are pretty old now...you'd think they are more mature and would change their attitude. I wish they were open minded but sometimes, I don't think its that easy for them to break out of their insular worlds. Despite that, my cousins who also live overseas (like Canada + UK) maintain strong ties with me so I guess that is a comforting factor. :)